Blue Balls

Wow it’s been a while since I have even gone to the blog page, sorry for giving my "fans" blue balls. On my way to Psychology (not to the Special Ed class Courtney) I was determined to make another one, collect my thoughts throughout the past couple weeks. It's easy for me to sit here and write what's on my mind because that is what I will do with any way of communication. I'm very outgoing and I like to talk which is why some people have fallen off the blog band wagon, or never officially got on (by the way there is a blog meeting every Monday morning before school in the library right after the pigeon toed meeting me and Kelsey hold). If this was any other sight I would say it’s not worth the twenty minutes I take and put down, advice, and publish (publishing is always a bitch to press the button, it’s at least five minutes). I could be using this time to do my math, science, or mythology homework, but the motivation just isn't really there anymore. Don't get me wrong I’ll get it done but I defiantly am not one of those people who will do it right after school when I have time. Instead I'm writing my first blog in two weeks waiting for the new Casey Veggies mix tape to come out. This school year academically I consider a waste of time. All my main classes I am taking I could be taking in college and the others consist of gyms. The only thing that this year has shown is my increasing interest in the field of broadcasting and journalism. I could spend all day in the studio working on the basketball highlight tape or going out and getting a story for the class, and with every week that passes I get more experience that will put me ahead of many of my colleagues at which ever college I go to. I've talked to allot of my Senior friends (not the ones at the retirement home, that’s another day) and Junior friends about graduating and what they think they will be getting there degree in, most shake their heads as their eyes move left to right trying to think of an answer, but most can't think of anything. This last year of high school with all of the electives we are able to take give you the opportunity to embrace any topic or field you want to for free to expand your experiences and maybe come across a class you have a passion for. Mine is broadcast journalism and it helps that I have motivation to do the work and make myself better. I see allot of adults who hate the career they went into and that makes no sense to get into something that you aren't sure about. I understand there are some people who start loving a job but grow old of it, but there has to be some way of predicting that so you can avoid it. With broadcast journalism I can highlight my personality, and I’m aware that I’m not the best and some things I do aren’t the best but I do feel like I get better with practice and I don’t feel an absent of interest coming anytime.
Side note for the next snow storm that is not during a school day, don’t complain cause everyone is feeling the exact same way you are so don’t broadcast the fact you are bitter just to start a conversation. Be a little more creative than that.
My next post will probably be something about Bravo so stay tuned for anyone who cares.

Mix tape that I recommend is,
Sleeping in Class- Casey Veggies

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a thinker

The other day I sat down in class and the person next to me exclaimed "I've never sat by a "popular" (i will be putting popular in quotations for the whole post) person before" and he was dead serious. And I didn't know what to say back. I know that I have a lot of friends and I'm not an outcast but I was for some reason a little offended by the remark. I have the clique meaning of "popular" that I am stuck up, rich, and get what ever girl I want. I wouldn't consider any of those things true, so I started thinking about if i was indeed a part of the "in crowd". Am I "popular" because of the people I hang out with? Or is it for the way I look? Is it because I make friends easy so not shy? Or because I'm involved in many different activities and branch outside my comfort zone? Or is it because I am on the Flash and people are accustom to my face? The thing about Eastview, especially seniors, is that we are so cliqy that there is definite groups of kids and they kind of have a certain tag of there reputation labeled on them that they have accumulated over the four years. And when you are seen with a certain group of people you are put into that group and it determines first impressions and how they view you without getting to know you. The whole system i think is messed up. It is frustrating when I have the opportunity to meet new people and they base there first opinion of me by what they have seen of me, who I'm with, and what they have heard from other people. I always try and learn how people are and become friends with them before I judge them. So when people say there is no good people in Bravo (i have muttered those words before) it shows ignorance because I have made a lot of friends that I probably never would have had the privilege to talk to.

Which brings me to another question, how would you go about redefining yourself as "popular"? With the status quo mainstream media advertises, in order to obtain "popularity" you have to attend the parties, get the hottest chicks, and be a main part in an activity whether its a sport or something else. Like lets say I just moved to Eastview and would want to hang out with a lot of people? Would I have to have multiple personalities in order to fit in with the large amount if cliq's? I just think it would be the worst feeling if if came into Eastview as a senior and I didn't smoke because that is the norm to do.



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Thanksgiving hangover (I started writing this on monday)

It was evident all around school today that other students bodies were teased by the thanksgiving break and almost everyone was suffering from the monday blues. Unlike all of those people, I have actually enjoyed school and life for the past couple months. This is supposed to be the time when people start to get dragged into depression, but life is just to good. I have a solid group of friends and setting myself up well for the college search that makes me not conform to the stressed mood that I have often felt at this time of year.

One of the reasons I've been feeling good is because of Bravo. I didnt think i would say it and even typing the words made me feel like when you see a person in the hall way and don't really know whether you should talk to them or just smile, but end up doing an inbetween smirk and a wave that makes you shake your head. Than you have to redeem your own pride so the next person you see you proudly acknowledge there existance with authority. Off the tangent and back on Bravo... I wouldn't say that Bravo singing and being serious would be the reason, even though i do show 100% effort. It gives me a chance to talk to different people and meet new people I wouldn't be able to meet otherwise. All of the people have different personalities than the people i usually surround myself with and I enjoy goofing off in a different way. Even though it is time consuming and for the most part a drag when I'm forced to sing in tune, I love all the friendships i create while going through the rehersals.

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