Purple Nuts

Its been almost a year since I've decided to find this site again and continue the wittiness and comedy that this blog brought to all the boys and girls. By this point your blue balls (metaphorically or truthfully) have become purple, and if they truthfully have, i recommend at the least a trip to the doctor cause last time i checked, purple could mean you have something potentially erroneous with you.
          Considering I have been through a lot this year alone, I don't know what i want this post to revolve around. I've left home, got in trouble with the law, got my ass kicked, got my parents still over my shoulder, left most of my good friends growing up (definitely took them for granted at the moment when they were closest) and have successfully transitioned from my safe, predictable day to day to a higher variety in my every day life. I've had a broad group of people asking me questions about life as a college student and expect nothing but partying and new friends everywhere you go. The sad reality is the amount of effort you have to put forth in order for all these false assumptions to occur. The work here is very interminable. Friends aren't difficult to come by (it helps that i talk to anyone that comes my way) but finding friends that you trust as much as you did in the four years in high school is awfully problematic. Especially at Eastview, you will have a clique you associate yourself with more then others, which creates a very strong bond between the people in the same group. Mine would start with Hunter, Freddy, and Peter; the friends that have been through literally everything with me over so much time, time seems to be irrelevant. My new friends that i acquired eventually was Jyak, Galloway, and Supe. You spend four years becoming so close to a select amount of people, the people you meet become inapplicable to be more then friends. I've heard it from almost everyone I've talked to that they consistantly wish that they would obtain people familiar to the ones they have, which i understand. My stand is that while your here, they are over there. While your talking to him, they are talking to them. My point is that, the reason that you picked a certain college, is because you considered it the optimal way to further your life and start to mold your future. I just don't understand why so many people don't give the people they will be with for the next years of there life a chance. I am, to an extent, hypocritical in this regard because ive been trying to get Freddy and Jyak to live with me for next year, but that doesn't mean that if they don't i will wallow over it. It bugs me because people from different schools have the same perception of strangers on their same campus, i won't be able to branch out as much as i promised myself going into school.
           I have realized how much high school impacted my decisions that i make recently. So far I'm personally a little disappointed how much pointless socializing happens on the weekend, particularly at night. I enjoyed in high school that i could go over to someones house (usually it would be my own) and have sober conversations with people that actually wanted to know me more longer then a song is on in a frat. Weekend socializing is practically pointless because all the girls go out with the intention of having the highest skirt and telling people they wont black out and be annoying, yet that is always the outcome. Having a meaningful conversation with a girl who is pretty is too ambitious because right away they have the assumption that you are trying to hook up. Sure seeing every frat pledge at the U has convinced me that girls aren't 100% wrong, but with them small percent who like getting to know people for the right reason, it becomes increasingly difficult. And I just don't wanna give the effort to try and say all the right things in order to have a cool story to tell the bros the next day. Only when I'm with girls I know is when i get off on the right foot, even if I'm the most polite gentleman (which i aspire to be to everyone) they will always think you have that hidden intention. Weekends are tight a*f at the U and i can not see myself going anywhere else in the world, plus these events happen no matter what campus your on, just venting a little bit.
          Surprisingly, the Earl you know and love is in the process of producing his own mix tape (ill give you time to collect your lost breathe). Considering i have no care in the world about what anyone else thinks of it, you shouldn't try to compare me to the likes of Jyak, Devers, or John Daniel. I started writing it when I realized I had so much more free time then i did in past years, and felt like i wanted to write down my thoughts. The seriousness is there but not in the sense that i want you to respect me as a rapper, rather respect me as a person and idealize my life perceptions and take it into your consideration in your every day life. It is very personal, which was the number one goal, I want people to know my life story because i consider it interesting enough. If not, it helped me collect my thoughts in the way that these lengthy blog posts help me vent and release things that if i was in a regular conversation i wouldn't think of to say all at once. I will write a post explaining every song in my mix tape one why i decided to say a certain event or memory. It debatably shows that everyone goes through struggles no matter what life you were born into. This is one of the main reasons I respect Jack Yakowicz as a lyricist. He is incredibly competent in writing his different trials on paper and making a listenable product. You listen and dissect the deeper meaning or his lyrics, it's genius. I hope i can explain and elaborate 1/10th of the way Jack is able to.

Alright well my fingers are getting tired, and no one will probably make it to the end of this lengthy segment anyway.

Peace and Love

Troy